Philippians 1:6 – Continues Still

so… that initial “break up” happened at Christmas time in 2004 ( i think). I was becoming more and more miserable and She was acting like nothing was wrong. It must be said, when our son was born, She devoted herself to being his mom…. She just seemed to have forgotten She was also my wife. In the 2+ years that elapsed between our initial “break-up” and our split this last spring (May 2007), our son slept in our bed, in my spot, more than I did.

So… one particularly miserable night when I was wide awake on the couch (insomnia was a side-effect of the bi-polar disorder… or maybe a side-effect of the meds…) I pulled up myspace.. I was probably the last person under 35 in the world to not have a myspace, so I decided to create one. (myspace.com/matty040275, btw) After initially creating my page, I started searching for people. I searched people I had known at Westmont and at SCA and at Heritage Christian. and I FOUND SOME!!! It was truly amazing, to reconnect with people who had been gone from me for so long.

I was feeling so lost and alone and bitter so, I decided to really go all out on my page. I listed myself as an Atheist and joined several online groups dealing with Rationalism and Atheism. I loaded my page with sex jokes and pro-legalization propaganda.

Then Mario emailed me. Mario graduated from SCA a few years ahead of me, before my family moved to AZ. But he had found my page and had seen that I, too, had graduated SCA. Mario is co-founder (along with Bobby Brewer and Stephen Baldwin) of The BreakThrough Ministry (www.globalbtm.org). When he read that I was an atheist, he emailed me and started giving me no end of grief over it… he challenged my faith (or lack thereof) from the very beginning and he has never let up. Today, I count him as an amazing friend, a brother in the LORD, and part of my spiritual ancestry.

Another person who was good to find, was a girl I dated briefly at SCA (i know, Andi, that doesn’t really narrow it down) who I will call “Kim” because, to my knowledge, I never dated anyone named “Kim”… by this I mean, I can use “Kim” and not have it refer to an actual person from my past. -ed. note

Kim had been in some bad relationships and had been married. She has two kids and, when I hooked up with her again, she was in yet another bad relationship. As is so often the case, two people in bad situations see, in each other, the way out, and we soon were talking on the phone/email/IM 3 and 4 hours a night… Did we fall in love? Dunno… we thought we did. We spent some time together; I traveled to where she lived a couple of times and we continued to talk on the phone. It was Kim who really started me to realize a) I had to get out of my marriage and b) I missed my GOD and my relationship to HIM through JESUS… Kim and I “dated” until late this summer when we decided it was better to just be friends. She has since pulled away and I really don’t know what’s happening with her right now. All in all, though, it was a great experience and it taught me a lot about what Love can be and should be, and will be again!

Gutsy Update

well… I took a Kubuntu 7.10 (Alt) install disk up to Redding over Thanksgiving and installed it on mom’s laptop… install went fine (it’s a Dell Inspiron notebook) but the Broadcom wireless card is giving me fits… i ended up bringing the lappy home from Cali with me and I promised to have it ship-shape by the time I get back there at Christmas…

I’m taking suggestions for other distro’s, tho… if anyone has any thoughts… basically, I want to have a KDE desktop (for ease of use and familiar feel) but, I don’t anticipate them needing to upgrade/install apps so, K/X/Ubuntu’s package management sys is not such a huge selling point… the lappy has a 2ghz celleron but is really short on RAM…

feedback, please!!!

long time, no post….

I feel like I have been away forEVER!!! There’s so much on my mind and I haven’t had the opportunity to get it all sorted!

Thanksgiving was great… I traveled up to northern California to see my parents and my sister. Fish didn’t come with me on this trip, but he and I will be up in Redding again over Christmas week… Originally, I was supposed to have Fish over Thanksgiving, but his cousins (Her brother and sister-in-law and their kids) were in Vegas visiting Her parents and I didn’t want him to miss out on that… they always have such a great time together and Her brother and all are really strong Christians and I wanted Fish to be around that… so it was a win-win… Now, Fish and I are going to drive up to Redding the Friday before Christmas and stay for a bit!! Grammy and Seanair (my mom and dad… Seanair is Scottish Gaelic for “grandfather”) and Fish’s “Aunt Nancy” are very excited to see him…

I’ve got lots more I want to write but I don’t have the time just now… I want to write about Tgiving dinner and I want to write about movies coming out and… and… and… LOL

TTFN,
Matty